Different World

*Falling for someone from a different world. Feeling helpless because it’s not realistic, but you would change the world itself to make it real because they complete you.*

I sometimes wish for a different world.

One where you don’t leave me tattered and whirled,

Where for once things would start to make some sense.

Where maybe just once there’d be no suspense.

Two of us free from the constraints of time,

Where blissful reality is no crime.

Even close together we’re worlds apart,

But you’ve stolen every beat of my heart.

In my darkest days I’d still breathe for you,

No matter what world I’m supposed to view.

Because in the end you’d be here with me.

And that’s all I need to ever feel free.

To be with you my soul would fly away.

But I will remain caged until that day.

Helplessly Hoping

*Found recently….From the old creative writing class, it was a prompt where we were supposed to rewrite the lyrics to the Crosby, Stills, & Nash song, incorporate the original, and put our own spins on it. From 2009.*

Helplessly hoping.

Her foolish lover hangs around her.

Waiting for her to speak,

To offer a glimpse of personality.

He wishes he could fly to her,

But all he can do is trip at the sound of her good-bye.

Wordlessly watching,

He waits by the window and wonders,

Why he’s so whipped.

He heartlessly helps himself to her bad dreams.

He takes on her worries, her problems, her fears.

Their love makes one person.

Separate they are two alone.

Their love creates and makes them three together.

They are for each other.

Stand by the stairway and you’ll see something.

The harlequin lovers who know the truth,

That love is made through helplessly hoping and wordlessly watching,

Through believing and admiring,

And being for each other, believing in one another, and embracing the role of lovers.


*About someone who induces panic attacks in you because you don’t know where things are going next with them.*

I start to tremble when you’re in my head.

Every thought keeps me awake in my bed.

The sweat starts to drip as my body shakes.

The panic settles in while my mind breaks.

Your hands hold what’s left of a fractured heart,

While I think of what hasn’t torn apart.

You hold the key but it can turn both ways.

Will you lead me out of this hellish maze,

Or will I stay stuck inside of this cage,

Stuck in between bliss and untethered rage?

I’m left in a daze but I can still see.

But I still wonder if I’ll be set free.

I feel the machine guns within my chest.

Will you be the one, or just like the rest?

Heavy Fire

*About the worry that you’ll never be good enough for someone.*

My heart has been under heavy fire.

It feels like it’s time for me to expire.

There’s hopelessness every time you come near.

A sense of dread I can’t help but to fear,

A weakness that seems to consume my soul,

A worry you’ll leave my heart in a hole,

Like somehow I wouldn’t be good enough,

That you won’t see a diamond through the rough.

It feels like I’m in an endless nightmare,

And I’m stuck thinking if you even care.

And here you’re all I can ever think of,

Still the only one I could want to love.

Will this hell turn into heaven for me?

Or am I doomed to never be set free?


*Someone you want to be with that wants to be with you, but you’re both unsure if it can last. It drives you crazy because you can feel all the tension they do. You want it anyway.*

I can feel the fractures in every word.

I can read your thoughts as the lines get blurred.

I see the split emerging in your mind,

The doubt you have in us being entwined.

It’s been consuming me during each night,

Constantly questioning what could be right.

Do you believe in destiny my love,

In the great things you’re always dreaming of?

Or is there nothing but darkened despair?

Would it be perfect or just a nightmare?

I see the longing and fear in your eyes,

The hope of bliss and worry of demise.

I see the walls that I want to break through.

Nothing else matters when I am with you.

A Reason To Try

*Being happy and intensely focusing on someone. Realizing that those feelings aren’t going to change because someone is finally worth it to you.*

It’s the same thing each time I lie in bed.

You’ll never be the one to leave my head.

Visions of you are all that I can see.

Perfect fantasies that set my heart free.

A time when we are together as one.

Feelings that burn like an exploding sun.

Passionate flames of an endless fire,

You will always be my true desire,

The one I want during the worst of time,

The one who makes me feel truly sublime.

Seasons may change but not all feelings die.

Sometimes a heart needs a reason to try,

A reason to fight through all of the pain,

A reason to give in to love’s new reign.


*Libertas is the Roman embodiment of liberty which the Statue of Liberty is based on. I wanted to capture the uncertainty of the nation. Questioning what comes next.*

Smiles fade away in the twilight hours.

A nation divided stands primed to fall,

From grace that was never truly ours.

Uncertainty and injustice for all?

Do we give in to the gloom of the grave,

And let bleak spirits continue to sink?

Or rise above like the banner did wave,

Far away from inequality’s brink?

Do we soar like eagles into the sky?

Or will we be prey for a growing bear?

Is the light of Libertas a war cry,

Or a symbol to snuff out like a flare?

Will love conquer in the land of the free, 

Or division from sea to shining sea?


*Someone who just overwhelms you whenever you think of them.*

Sometimes I wonder if time’s on my side,

Then your smile takes my heart for a joyride.

It’s like another plane when I see you.

Feelings I can’t handle from what you do.

In a free fall I don’t want to escape,

Where these words flow with the wind like a cape,

Better than any set that I could write,

While life for once would feel perfectly right.

There’s only heaven where your eyes should be,

And only perfection when you’re with me.

And all I could want is for you to stay.

I wouldn’t have it any other way.

You’re the only one I want to dream of.

The only one who makes words out of love.


*About wasting your time with someone who doesn’t deserve you. Realizing you only saw the good or what reminded you of someone else, and that they really were imperfect to the point you shouldn’t have overlooked anything. Someone else would deserve you, but not the real them.*

It wasn’t you when I looked in your eyes.

It just took me too long to realize,

I was looking for someone else’s soul,

Trying to capture what would make me whole.

Every night I saw someone else’s face.

You’re not good enough to make my heart race.

Imperfection isn’t always beauty.

Not everyone can deserve my duty.

Only someone special is right for me.

A type of person you could never be.

I thought things were perfect when I had you,

But you weren’t worth the hell I went through.

You’re poison that could have torn me apart,

Unlike someone who would deserve my heart.


*Feeling like you just don’t exist around someone you’re a clear match for, and waiting for the right time to just go for it, then getting sick of waiting and doing something about it.*

I feel like a ghost each time you come near,

But without you is how I disappear.

Invisible no matter how it seems.

I feel like a spectre even in dreams,

Waiting idly for you to notice me.

Hoping your eyes open and you can see,

That I offer you something truly real.

Happiness you never knew you could feel,

The sole missing piece to complete your heart,

The cure to keep you from falling apart.

I am everything you could ever need,

Just waiting for the chance to plant the seed.

Waiting for the moment to make you mine,

But that isn’t far when tonight is fine.